I think I might have it, and it’s interresting. I’m generally a nice, flegmatic and extremely non-confrontional person, but when someone tells me what I can’t or have to do, that I don’t agree with, it awakens something in me. An intense drive to just be extremely petty and get my revenge, either through malicious compliance or some other petty revenge. It can drive me for quite some time, and it’s an intense impulse that is hard to ignore.
It’s not anger, and it’s never violent. I kind of assume this is how people with OCD feel, but instead of being unreasonably triggered by OCD stuff, you hate being told what to do.
It’s usually enough for me to plan the malicious compliance, or the petty revenge, I usually don’t go through with it and let go eventually, but it is intense nonetheless.
I had it as a kid. I was a complete asshole nightmare teenager lol. I later learnt it can be part of ADHD. Even today I still have it, but as you get older you learn tricks to live with it without throwing your boss out the window. Little mental gymnastics like, when someone tells me to do something, I try to find a way for me to agree with them and make it “my idea” and own it if that makes sense. Like “hmm yea actually you’re right” kind of mindset. Unless it’s something I really don’t want to do then we have problems
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I think I might have it, and it’s interresting. I’m generally a nice, flegmatic and extremely non-confrontional person, but when someone tells me what I can’t or have to do, that I don’t agree with, it awakens something in me. An intense drive to just be extremely petty and get my revenge, either through malicious compliance or some other petty revenge. It can drive me for quite some time, and it’s an intense impulse that is hard to ignore.
It’s not anger, and it’s never violent. I kind of assume this is how people with OCD feel, but instead of being unreasonably triggered by OCD stuff, you hate being told what to do.
It’s usually enough for me to plan the malicious compliance, or the petty revenge, I usually don’t go through with it and let go eventually, but it is intense nonetheless.
I had it as a kid. I was a complete asshole nightmare teenager lol. I later learnt it can be part of ADHD. Even today I still have it, but as you get older you learn tricks to live with it without throwing your boss out the window. Little mental gymnastics like, when someone tells me to do something, I try to find a way for me to agree with them and make it “my idea” and own it if that makes sense. Like “hmm yea actually you’re right” kind of mindset. Unless it’s something I really don’t want to do then we have problems
Iirc, ODD is only diagnosed in children and adolescents. Is this something you’ve experienced since childhood?
Autism was also assumed to be age related for a long time since Kanner.