I’m awake in the middle of the night because I had a panic attack about the rain because my garage roof has been leaking so badly and I can’t fix it and it’s just going to get worse and worse until it caves in and then the landlord will evict me and then I’ll kill myself.
IM PROUD TO BE AN AMERICAN WHERE AT LEAST I KNOW IM FREE
I’m sorry that’s all happening to you. There are pockets of America that aren’t so bad, you might be okay where I’m at. The right place and right people can make all the difference. Send me a DM if you need to talk.
Landlords suck and I wish mine would get shot and killed. This year I was hit with the triple whammy of my dad having a stroke, my brother getting ill from the stress, and then the landlord threatening to evict us for my brother throwing up in public.
The new land manager is recently whipped someone with a chain when they tried to leave on time and he claimed they still owed him money.
It says something that Adam Smith and Karl Marx both agreed landlords do nothing and shouldn’t be a thing. Two people who described the two main ways people think of economics hate them.
I hope you are able to get help and get out of that shithole.
That’s how it fucking feels, yeah. I wish I could do more to help you. I’m just a random person on the internet who’s vaguely in the same backwards nation.
I’ll admit, the method of communication does not help. There are things in the comments that are aggressive and agitating to people who read it. It does not seem conductive to the cause.
But you’re not a fool for expressing emotions. No one is. The people who find emotions are weak are the kind of people who capitalism enables and rewards. They get far in life because they don’t care about humans. That’s all positions of power, the further you go up, the more distanced from humans you are.
I’m personally more of an anarchist than a Marxist, but I don’t view you as en enemy. You’re someone in a stressful situation and you lashed out. Mistakes happen, we can only learn from them.
I can’t offer much, I have to pretend to get sleep soon. I wish I could give you something warm to drink and a hug. I would advice some grounding techniques, deep breaths, and maybe a show you really enjoy. Or some dumb YouTube shit.
I wish you luck, and I hope you’re able to recover soon. I don’t wish to say it will get better. That’s a promise I can’t keep and I refuse to make those. All I can say is that hopefully in a year or two, you can look back and reflect on how it seemed hopeless then.
Things aren’t okay for me either. I have support networks of my family and friends. I don’t know if I’d be typing this back to you at… [Stares at clock] 3:30 am if I didn’t have them. My past has some wild shit from manic episodes and shit I did when I lashed out in anger, rage, and fear.
But I hope you’re able to take a breather from here. Lemmy is better than reddit. But that’s not saying much. I wish I could lend you more.
You have you understand, she has no friends for the last 10 years and thinks China is a good place. Said so herself.
https://sh.itjust.works/post/66349866/27303599
I also regularly self harm and am a stupid worthless fucking animal that deserves to fucking die.
You need to get some help, I am hoping ya do. You’re clearly in a dark place and need someone to listen to you.
I’m too fucking poor to get any help.
I’m awake in the middle of the night because I had a panic attack about the rain because my garage roof has been leaking so badly and I can’t fix it and it’s just going to get worse and worse until it caves in and then the landlord will evict me and then I’ll kill myself.
IM PROUD TO BE AN AMERICAN WHERE AT LEAST I KNOW IM FREE
I’m sorry that’s all happening to you. There are pockets of America that aren’t so bad, you might be okay where I’m at. The right place and right people can make all the difference. Send me a DM if you need to talk.
Landlords suck and I wish mine would get shot and killed. This year I was hit with the triple whammy of my dad having a stroke, my brother getting ill from the stress, and then the landlord threatening to evict us for my brother throwing up in public.
The new land manager is recently whipped someone with a chain when they tried to leave on time and he claimed they still owed him money.
It says something that Adam Smith and Karl Marx both agreed landlords do nothing and shouldn’t be a thing. Two people who described the two main ways people think of economics hate them.
I hope you are able to get help and get out of that shithole.
I’ll never get help. Everything gets worse forever, anyone who says otherwise is a fucking liar.
That’s how it fucking feels, yeah. I wish I could do more to help you. I’m just a random person on the internet who’s vaguely in the same backwards nation.
But you see, I’m not even a random person to other posters. In their opinion I’m either a paid Chinese agitator or a bot.
And then I foolishly let that shit get to me, and trauma dumped on the chat like a fucking loser and humiliated myself.
I’ll admit, the method of communication does not help. There are things in the comments that are aggressive and agitating to people who read it. It does not seem conductive to the cause.
But you’re not a fool for expressing emotions. No one is. The people who find emotions are weak are the kind of people who capitalism enables and rewards. They get far in life because they don’t care about humans. That’s all positions of power, the further you go up, the more distanced from humans you are.
I’m personally more of an anarchist than a Marxist, but I don’t view you as en enemy. You’re someone in a stressful situation and you lashed out. Mistakes happen, we can only learn from them.
I can’t offer much, I have to pretend to get sleep soon. I wish I could give you something warm to drink and a hug. I would advice some grounding techniques, deep breaths, and maybe a show you really enjoy. Or some dumb YouTube shit.
I wish you luck, and I hope you’re able to recover soon. I don’t wish to say it will get better. That’s a promise I can’t keep and I refuse to make those. All I can say is that hopefully in a year or two, you can look back and reflect on how it seemed hopeless then.
Things aren’t okay for me either. I have support networks of my family and friends. I don’t know if I’d be typing this back to you at… [Stares at clock] 3:30 am if I didn’t have them. My past has some wild shit from manic episodes and shit I did when I lashed out in anger, rage, and fear.
But I hope you’re able to take a breather from here. Lemmy is better than reddit. But that’s not saying much. I wish I could lend you more.