As someone who ignored their feelings and eventually realized that I was miserable, it takes bravery to finally listen to yourself again. I think you’re doing the right thing. It’s hard to feel repressed feelings. Really hard. There were many times when I felt like I was barely treading water. Eventually it gets easier and I felt like myself again.

I went to a counselor and they told me that I had to unprogram myself. I had been telling myself things like “you’re not good enough”. I learned to tell myself positive things, even when I half didn’t believe them at first. Here’s some things that helped me to tell myself:

You’re fine the way you are. You belong in this world as much as anyone else. Your feelings are valid.

I gave myself permission to prioritize myself and my feelings and things improved. I’m not saying it’s okay to neglect others. Sometimes the best thing you can do to help others is to help yourself first. You can learn to trust yourself and love yourself again.

Not sure the term applies here. Enshittification is about companies making products worse on purpose for profit.

The real reason Reddit banned third party apps has finally come to fruition. I still miss rif is fun.

Be careful out there. New COVID strain is about!

I want to know how many steps I took and how much time I spent taking showers and how many times I narrowly escaped death, etc.

Thanks for the nicely written summary. Sounds like an interesting project. I haven’t written any Scheme in a long time, although I’ve worked with R a lot (which is actually kind of lisp-y internally anyway). I messed around with Clojure in the past, but I didn’t use it for anything serious. I think it’s cool when older programming languages get revised and refreshed.

Frieren is so good even though it makes me feel feelings.

Mike Johnson recently said that his world view is the same as what’s in the Bible. I hope one day he realizes with horror that he’s been a very hateful person, and that even the Bible he says he follows would condemn this kind of cruelty. He and the Republicans think they’re doing “God’s work”, but they’re not. At all.

I’ve been trying to put myself in the shoes of someone who voted for the orange man. It seems like inflation was the biggest factor for a lot of people. I guess I can understand that when it’s hard to afford groceries anymore, the correlation equals causation argument that Trump pushed becomes more alluring. Biden/Harris were in charge when inflation happened. Would it have been much worse with Trump in power? I think so, but maybe a lot of people are just thinking that a change was needed, enough to ignore literally everything else about Trump. I dunno, but I refuse to believe that most people who voted for Trump are fascist or racist or bigots or misogynist. Just trying to stay hopeful.

I’m having a hard time not seeing a belly button.

Good point. I think it’s too late to be making this decision, unfortunately.

The story about this backdoor is really wild if it’s true https://lcamtuf.substack.com/p/technologist-vs-spy-the-xz-backdoor

Thank you for this. You managed to combine two of my favorite things in a way I never expected. BURNINATE THE DOMINION!!

Internet2 actually has existed since 1997. It’s like a series of private connections between universities. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Internet2

I had this phone. It was great. I really miss tactile keyboard keys.

I love this analogy