Sasha (she/her)
This week has been pretty good so far. Paid off my car, so now I don’t need to think about that anymore :). I also found out just how amazing some of my friends are too!
I had a few good cries, happy and sad, and am really starting to feel like me, and haven’t felt like I’m trapped playing pretend in a little while now. All in all, it’s been a fantastic week to be me! ✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧
My best friend from when we were kids reached out to me, and we re-connected! I’m so happy I might actually cry!
Also, so I suddenly get motion sick super easy now, which is kinda funny since I had zero issues with VR headsets for hours at a time before, and now a flat screen can be too much. Also apparently I’m squeamish now too? Had to deal with dead bugs at work and it made me feel so sick. Weird.
Anyways my week has been fantastic so far and I’m actually starting to enjoy life, even things like folding laundry or standing in a line to vote.
Just got back from camping with friends last week; that was a ton of fun, I kinda wish it didn’t have to end, living in the woods with friends cooking strange meat on a fire just kinda felt like the way life’s supposed to be. Also I started hrt on Monday, and everything’s just going amazing right now.
I think I’m actually happy, I like this.
Sorry I haven’t commented on one of these in a while. Life’s been a bit of a mess. I don’t know how to feel anymore. Stressed? Terrified? Anxious? Does any of this actually matter?
Have to make a 9 hour drive up north to Georgia for an appointment early October, didn’t expect to have to do that. Apparently starting new care was recently banned here, so that’s…it sucks. Just trying to keep my sanity till then at this point.
Turns out some family members I have to see regularly are very transphobic, so… yeah. That’s been oh so fantastic for my mental health too.
Venting aside (I’m sorry) the best news is definitely getting a new car. Traded in my aging SUV for a much newer Subaru, and absolutely love it. Finally something that wasn’t a hand-me-down, that’s mine and my own. Also managed turned that now required drive to Georgia into timing perfectly with a camping trip with some friends up there, so that’s something worth looking forwards to.
Sorry if any of this was saying too much. I’ve been stressed way out.
Well, in that case, I’d like better odds. What am I supposed to do with a million dollars?
I guess I’d press it anyways. 1% is better than nothing.
There’s a 50/50 chance I just got myself fired for standing up for myself at work, I’ll find out on Tuesday when I go back in, I guess; it really doesn’t matter to me anymore, I wasn’t happy there, just stressed. If I’m not, then that’s cool.
This is definitely the most euphoric I’ve felt in years, I think I’m going to celebrate with a trip to the beach and maybe look for some spots to skate. I think I’ll start self advocating for myself more, too. I like this feeling.
Had a mental breakdown over the weekend. Ended up spending a day on self care, and I think I’m going to start working towards making some changes in my life, cause this isn’t working for me.
And now I’ve just gone and impulsively bought some of those on the internet.
Oooh this means I don’t have to commit to a long sleeve shirt in the summer or maybe as heavy a coat in the winter! Thanks internet stranger! 😊
I think that’s from mastodon users, and how mastodon works when replying. I haven’t personally used mastodon though, so someone please correct me if I’m wrong.
I’ve definitely had a kinda emotional week (in a good way). My dad that I thought would never speak to me again sat down and wanted to just ask questions and talk with me, which was weird since all he’s ever done was yell at me and put me down since I was a kid, but this felt like an actual, normal conversation, for once. Basically I’m pretty sure he’s just finally accepted me, and that feels pretty nice.
I also finally finished setting up the replacement PC for the one that died a month ago; Gotta say I’m surprised with how easy it is to just run games on Linux now. Things just work.
And I learned over the last weekend that a whole bunch of people on my mom’s side of the family are super supportive, which I really wasn’t expecting!
(Also thanks for reminding me I need to take more time to just sit down, relax and read)