Pooptimist

I studied German philology for far too long because of sunken cost phalacy, while I had a monotone student job localizing e-learning presentations until I got laid off. Then I took part in a programming bootcamp and have been a Frontend Web developer for the last 4 years.

Recently, I’m feeling a little unsatisfied because I’m very much a jack of all trades, master of none kinda person, and to get further in my field I would have to have a really deep understanding of how things works under the hood, and those abstract things are very hard for me to grasp. Even harder since I had covid two years ago with ensuing brain fog for more than half a year, which still makes it harder to learn new things and keep them in my memory, which is quite sad because I always learned pretty fast…

Now that I have been part of this hamster wheel of corporate bullshit for quite some time I feel that I want to do more creative stuff with programming, as I was always interested in art and making music (which sadly also has declined because of perfectionism and anxiety), and creating visual stuff brings me into the zone where the hours fly by, but adapting some configs or working with abstract data stuff does not.

Should my job get taken by AI I want to do something with my hands, like wood or metal working, or something where I can help people, but let’s see.

On the other hand I should be glad that I have a stable job that pays well and the people there are really nice, but I feel something is missing in my life. I tried to buy happiness and materialism, but somehow I was happier when I had less

Wait, what?!

You could give Italo Disco a try, which is a predecessor to synthwave and a lot of electronic dance music.

A contemporary niche cousin that I liked to listen to a few years back is giallo disco, which is a contemporary imitation of dark synth music inspired by 80s Italian horror movies.

From there I progressed to trance and house, acid techno and other synth heavy dance music genres.

It’s not man made, it’s the sun that is going through a cycle /s

Noob question: is win 11 really necessary to squeeze out more performance and quality? I’d really like to avoid “upgrading” as long as possible

Give a listen to “Music inspired by the snowgoose” by camel.

They were a psychedelic /progressive rock band from the UK who wanted to write an album based on a short story called The snowgoose. The author wasn’t a fan, unbelievably, so they scratched the lyrics and added “music inspired by” to the album title. The whole album is a journey that I can’t recommend enough!

Can we please stop with these clickbaity titles?

Me too, I wish there was an anime or a Manga of project justice! I know there is one of power stone, but I’m not sure if I should revisit that one or if that better stays a memory

That’s great and much better than nothing! Thanks for the info!

Please power stone and project justice!

I’m playing sniper elite 5 right now and I really like the multiplayer mode where you can invade another player as a nazi sniper. It makes for really fun and tense situations

For me it had the opposite effect, sadly. I was pretty confident in myself two years ago, but then I got covid a second time and since then I’m not quite the same. I get nervous all the time and feel stressed easily, which in turn makes me feel sick and sweaty, which makes me nervous again. It’s gotten better through therapy, CBD oil and supplements for the brain, but I’m still not back to my old self and might never be

Alright, time to order a grow box again!

How much grams were needed for that?

How did you do that?

According to the article, it went wash off, but naturally dissolve after 24h

I can imagine, but you can do it! :)

You can sleep after doing blow? How? Haha

Thanks for the kind words! I’ve been battling with it for around a year now or maybe a little longer. I suspect long covid, because it basically followed a hefty period of brain fog after a covid infection, but therapy and supplements help immensely :)

I’m running the pre-made campaign season of ghosts as a first time GM. It’s an Asian themed mystical horror setting and it does a good job of guiding me through it as I don’t have that much experience running games yet.

The only thing that is a little debatable is the difficulty of the fights, which are intended to be on the easier/very easier side, which I don’t really like, so I’m adjusting the fights, but I have five players and it is written for four, so that makes it even harder to gauge, as well as some variant rules we use that make the PCs a little stronger.

Until now, the PCs steamrolled pretty much every fight and boss fight, but yesterday I upped the difficulty dramatically and it was a really exciting boss battle! So I think I’m finally getting a grasp on gauging the difficulty better

I overcame my social anxiety today and went to the office after a long period of sickness and it was great! I really missed seeing other people than my wife for a change! :D In the evening I ran my pathfinder campaign and it went really well, save for some hiccups from foundry, which is the online tool that we are using, so maybe an 8?